First off I would like to start with saying thank you for your service and for continuing to inspire. I enjoy hearing your stories of war time difficulties but I become motivated by the day to day never quit moments that you tell.
My never quit story:
I was 18 and did not know what to do with my life. I left home at 16 and moved in with my grandparents my home life/childhood was not normal and pretty rough. So I joined the Navy! Best decision of my life. While doing PT one day I passed out. I was sent to medical who then sent me to a cardiologist there at Great Lakes. He diagnosed me with Hypertrophic cardio myopathy. After multiple appeals and denials I was finally denied the ability to continue my journey in the Navy. They supplied me with a cardiac defibrillator/pacemaker and sent me on my way. When I got back home I was more lost than ever. The path I had made for myself was now gone. I saw an ad one day to become a medic so I picked it up and showed up at class that first night. It was a tough program for me. I had never had to try at anything in my life. Because there were no funds I worked night shift at a grocery store. Everyday I had to convince myself being there was the right thing. After completion I went on and got several more degrees but even now I can look back and remember how tough that time was for me but how proud I am of myself that I did not allow my self to quit.
I find myself today in a bad place. My heart and my mind are not in sync with each other. My life is on autopilot and I’m not sure how to get out of it. I feel that I have no purpose and that I am not contributing. I know that is not exactly true I have a wife and 3 kids that depend on me not only to provide but to teach and guide. Yet I still find myself with no motivation and no goals. I find myself being a person I do not like. How do you combat this invisible enemy?